Day 3 - Sunday 23rd April 2017

Wedding Season

Well, I achieved a Sober Saturday yesterday and woke up this morning reaching for the Ibuprofen again!  My head was pounding, despite all the water I consumed last night.  I'm beginning to wonder whether my body is craving the sugar it used to get from wine.  Hopefully it will pass soon and I will wake up each day clear headed and ready to go.  I'll keep you posted on that!

Yesterday seemed to mark the start of 'Wedding Season' or so my Facebook feed seemed to suggest.  I was fine yesterday until around 4.30pm when I checked into Facebook and was presented with numerous wedding photos of one of my good friends enjoying a few glasses of Prosecco.  Immediately, I had pangs of wine envy and thoughts of 'maybe I could just have one?'  Of course, my good friend can and often does, only have one.  I had to tell myself that I am not like my friend.  I cannot control my intake.

I made a conscious decision not to look anymore and as it turned 5pm (my usual wine o'clock) I decided to take the dog for a walk instead of reaching for a glass.  It was a beautiful, sunny Spring evening and as I walked down the field I realised how nice it is to be fully in control of your senses - I would usually take the dog after a couple of pre-dinner glasses of wine.  I consciously listened to the birds singing and as I looked up to the sky, I saw a heron pass overhead, looking so calm and serene.  I want to be like that heron.  I want to live my life sober and serene.

Big hugs,

Sxxxx