Day 1 - Friday 21st April 2017

This Lady is Going Sober!

Today I woke up after another evening on the vino and decided 'no more'.

I have been reading a number of books on giving up alcohol (in my case wine) for a while now.  In fact last year I had a period of three and a half months off the booze and never felt better.  However, Christmas came along and my fear of 'missing out' on the fun took over and I was lost again to wine after the very first drink.

So having just finished Allen Carr's book 'The Easy Way to Control Alcohol' I feel ready to say 'no' to wine.  I have succeeded in putting on a stone since Christmas, not only due to the wine, but due to the fact that I lose my conscience when I drink, and I no longer care whether what I am eating is healthy and nutritional.  So, not only do I drink, I binge eat as well.  They go hand in hand and the more I drink, the more I lose control of rational thought particularly in relation to eating.

I know from previous experience that this is going to be a difficult journey, but I am a high functioning 47 year old woman, with a good job, lovely home and husband and two lovely teenage children.  Everything in my life is good apart from the fact that I can't control my alcohol intake.  If I don't do it now, I fear I never will and I will face the later years of my life battling health problems. I do not want to be that person.

So today I say 'no' to drinking alcohol.  It does not make me happy.  It makes me feel rough and irritable the next day, it fuels arguments with my husband that I know we wouldn't have had if I hadn't been drinking and it makes me look and feel unhealthy.  There are NO benefits of drinking. 

I know these things of course, but I seem to forget them when the urge for wine takes over.  I'm writing this blog to remind myself  why I am doing this and I hope it helps those of you out there who are in the same position as me and really want to change.  Wish me luck.

I read somewhere the other day that you can't rescue somebody that doesn't want to be saved.  Well I do want to be saved so I am going to do this.  Drinking is not cool.  I choose to be Sober and Serene.......

Wish me luck,

Sxxxx